Recently I lost my grandmother. She died because of cancer. It was really shocking because everything happened so fast. In less than two months she was stuck in a bed where she could not move, she would not eat a thing and did not even drink a drop of water. Every time we tried to move her she just screamed in pain and begged us to stop doing everything. It was like we were torturing her but we only wanted her to be comfortable with no pain, eating, talking and being "happy". At the beginning of her disease I prayed every night to God so he could make her stand up and be with me again. Now that I look back I think I was very selfish I wasn't thinking on her I was thinking in myself and what would I do without her. But at some point that changed. I was no longer praying for her to get better. I started praying to God so he could had mercy of her and stop with her suffering. I was just wishing her death. This maybe sounds horrible but it is not. I could no longer bear to see somebody that I loved suffer so much.
Finally God heard my prayer. She died and I was with her the day it happened. It was so relieving seeing her just resting in peace. I believe this is the great part about death. After having a good life you can actually be happy and rest. During all that time I thought that I would just literally blast in tears when she died but it was not like that. I was happy for her. She had a great life were she had the blessing of having a family that loved her, she travelled to many places and most important was happy. I can't say I don't miss her because I really do but I just know that she is on a better place now watching me.
